I am essentially still speechless.
The adventure and voyage with her only lasted 7 intense months. I am changed, and the course of my life has changed. And I am her – not separate – in the deepest heart of hearts. In essence, she will go with me to any manifest world. I had always known her and I always will. There is no time, (there) where I am her.
The passage/tribute below was first posted in a FB photo folder titled: What is Art? It is a testimonial of what and who she is:
♥ She IS Art – sculpted and painted by nature and imbued with a big spirit by creation itself.
She IS Art – no point really trying to describe it – she is a delight to behold….beautiful, present, playful, regal, happy, alert, with such elegance in movement, with determination & focus, loyalty in doing her job – independent yet open to adjustment & contact – slowly giving her trust and turning into a love bug.
She raises your spirits with her magnificent presence just being who she is from her essence…a transmitter of divine vibration.
Maybe there are other dogs like this – maybe there is one such special dog for everyone that can have such an effect on someone. Maybe I was just ready to see, maybe she really is that special, maybe it was reawakening past live connection. Who knows…
…wish you could have seen her fly through the meadow, studying a situation, try to play with a cow, or teach stormy how to play or wag her tail or….
May you be blessed with an encounter such as this so when you hear someone say “it’s just a dog” or “just a drum” or “just a promise” or “just a weed” – you know that they “just don’t understand”- not yet anyway. You’ve got to be open to the magic, willing to go through the portal into a different world, be amazed, accept what you find there, give it your full attention…allow your heart to be broken once again….humbled, still and awed – and be changed – ART…but really – LOVE.
Little did I know it was to change my life, or – better said, change me. Even at the time I kept having the sense and visual of walking through a long tunnel with her. At some point towards the end there was an acute awareness of possible futures. I know I am different. There was a leveling up and integrating on a feeling level with the rest of “it” – and I am seeing people and things with a clarity that is mostly humbling and compassionate – and also seeing the extent of this all – with a peaceful silence – and at the same time the energy to action. At the time of this writing, she’s been gone to a new home for 4 months, which seems so much longer, and still the tears come every day. I look at it as having fostered her and I know she got a good foundation to be where is is now. Magnificent being – friendly with people, kids and dogs, playful, driven and essentially wild, not treat motivated, communicating is so many ways what she “thought” or felt about each of my attempts to “train” her to get her used to good habits in the situation we were in. We spent many hours in the winter cold and rain, her digging her energy off and me waiting before I could let her off the leash, walking and more walking, playing, and training with the other 2 dogs. She got used to enjoy and relax with my hands. We bonded. She had the key to something in my heart, or my very self, and I stepped through. There is something about dogs in relation to humans which is amazing. That exploration has only started.
What a magnificent being …
And I learned too, it is does not work out – it is always the people. you can’t make a person understand, commit, change and sometimes, a dog is too much. One the other hand, if you want “wash and wear dogs”, better to get stuffed animals.
For me there is deep gratitude to have had the privilege of getting to know her. It was a life changing and awakening encounter.
Namaste – and God Bless